too long/ on my heart

October 9, 2009

It has been way too long since my last post….where to begin?!

School started up again in August, and this is my third year at Belmont which sounds just crazy. Its amazing how time goes by.  This semester has been crazy busy with school and work. I am currently working at Pie in the Sky, which is a pizza place here in Nashville. It seems like I am constantly being consumed by work and homework….ugh. I love it here in Nashville but sometimes I think why am I here, I should have chosen a school that is close to the beach, what was I thinking?! Oh yea, I want to live where its gorgeous and I want to find a really cute southern boy….just kidding…but really haha….We had about 2 weeks of straight rain but it has since but beautiful and sunny. Fall is in the air!  How I met your mother is my new favorite show lately…it’s pretty hilarious. Needtobreathe was here in Nashville just recently and I am extremely bummed I missed it, but check out their music its pretty legit.

On my heart…..Ever wonder why something is placed on your heart? I know I do. Maybe it’s an old friend, someone you see for the first time, or something totally different.  i always think it is for a reason.  Maybe it is maybe it isnt. Although for some reason I think God placed someone on my heart for a reason.  This sounds crazy and in some ways extremely selfish, but I hate to cry and usually only do so when something happens to me. But there was a guy who came into my work a while back who was blind. He was all by himself and my heart just broke for him. He sat at a table all alone, unable to read our menu, and had no one there to help him.  I wanted to just sit and talk with him so he wasn’t alone.  I don’t know what it was, but I fought back the tears as I thought in my head this isnt fair.  How come so many people can see but this man can see nothing? I just wanted him to see. All i could do is pray for him, and I have ever since that day.  God can heal the sick, make the crippled walk, and make the blind see. Lately I have felt that nothing has been going right in my life, but this made me think how blessed I am.  The problems I have been facing are nothing compared to the daily struggles this man probably faces.  I may never see this man again, but in my heart I believe he will see again.  God can do the impossible.  Tonight, this man is on my heart. I encourage you, if someone is placed on your heart to say a prayer for them. And if it is an old friend call them.  You just never know who might need it.


Dance with God, and He’ll let the perfect man cut in”

February 13, 2009

“Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone; to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But God says, “No, not until you satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me alone, and with having intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone, discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found; only then will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me. Exclusive of anyone else, exclusive of any other desires or longings, I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you. You just wait. That’s all. Don’t be anxious. Don’t worry. Don’t look around at the things others have gotten or that I’ve given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking off and away up to Me or you’ll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you could dream of. You see, until you are ready (I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until both of you are satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have planned for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me; and this perfect love. And, dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love; I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me, and to enjoy materially and concretely the everlasting love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I am God. Believe and be satisfied.” 

-author unknown

I saw this quote the other day and it just really hit.  It’s so true. Until I can be 100% satisfied in my relationship with God will I find a relationship with man. Sometimes it’s so hard when you see old friends getting married and others dating but I know God has the perfect person picked out for me. It’s just remembering that it’s in His timing not in my own. Why does it seem that girls are so concerned with finding love? I know I am, its like that’s just whats expected. We over analyze everything its ridiculous. If only it was so easy not to care. I once overheard a group of guys talking and how each of them prays for their future wives every single day. I was shocked, it gave me hope that there are sill good God fearing men out there.  I had prayed for a future husband, but not him specifically.  Looking at it from that way, and since then, I pray for you every day. I pray that you are a man of God and that you make wise decisions, and that God is keeping you safe. I pray we will meet when the timing is right.  God has you hand picked and I know we will meet someday soon…

“Dance with God, and He’ll let the perfect man cut in”

You found Me

January 26, 2009

Isaac on from The Fray on “You Found Me”

“You Found Me is a tough song for me. Its about the disappointment, the heartache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and I’m still right in the thick of it. There’s some difficult circumstances my family and friends have been going through over the past year or so and can be overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest.”

give me your eyes

January 10, 2009

What if we saw everything through God’s eyes?  How would you see people differently?


December 29, 2008

Christmas is such a wonderful time of the year!  Every year it seems to come so fast, but then it goes faster than it came.  Even though there is a lot of hustle and bustle, it brings family and friends together from all over!  It has been nice to be home and see everyone that I don’t get to see too often. I love how Christmas is supposed to be a jolly time of the year, even though its stressful getting everything ready, it seems like everyone wants to be happy. I think it is my favorite holiday of the year.  I love going shopping for the gift that will just make someone smile. To me that is the best part, just watching their face light up with excitement! Blessing someone else in a way that just seems extra special. All of this is what makes Christmas my favorite holiday.


December 8, 2008

I should be working on homework right now but I decided to take a little break 🙂    It’s def been a little while since the last time I wrote anything on here. Im not really good with this whole blogging thing lol….I cant believe it is already coming down to the end of the semester! Craziness!!!  At the same time it feels like we just got back to school but at the same time it feels like forever ago!  Just got back from home a week ago and already go back home next week for Christmas break.  I will miss everyone but I definitely wont miss this cold weather! Its 27 degrees outside while its been in the 70’s at home, looking forward to it 🙂    

“love is looking into someone’s eyes and seeing their heart”

Letting Go

November 14, 2008

What makes you hold on to something where you just cant seem to let go. Like notes, letters, cards, etc. I know I have a box full of birthday cards, notes, and letters from friends and family. I cant tell you when I actually last looked at them, but for some reason I just keep on saving them and never throw them away! Even the littlest things I hold on to thinking oh well maybe I will need to use this one day or I could use this for a project, you just never know what might come in handy some day.  Or what about relationships/girls/boys… Friendships that have had some rough spots that maybe just need to be ended, but its like you feel like you have this tie with someone and youve been dependent on one another so you just cant give them up.  Or maybe its someone you like or have dated etc. Like when a guy keeps pursuing you and your not into him but he just cant get the hint.  Dont you just want to tell him let go! Move on! Its never gonna happen! (I dont think I could ever specifically say that, but you get the drift?)Then I think maybe guys think that about girls too. We can be emotional and are worried to death that we are going to get our hearts broken. I dont think us girls really pay attention to the fact that maybe we are breaking guys hearts too.  Then maybe we all dont realize how eachother feels because it seems like no one can just come up and lay it all out. Say heres the deal this is whats up maybe you like the person maybe you dont. Couldnt it be so much more simple if relationship stuff went that way.

Are guys really that oblivious sometimes? But then I know some girls, like me, are not the pursuing type so guys I like/liked may not have even realized that I was interested. So Maybe guys need to have everything laid out right in front of them, but then what about the girls like me who arent the type to be all over some guy just to flatter him. I have recently realized that this has caused a dilemma for me.   Im kinda old fashioned in the fact that I think guys should do more of the pursuing, I dont do well at flirting. THen again my mom asked my dad out, and if she hadn’t they prob would not be together today.  I know im a girl it should be the natural thing to do right? yea well for some reaon when it comes to the guys I like, i think I put up a wall because I am too afraid of being hurt.  I know..ridiculous. Cause at the end of the day what do you have to lose?!

Or how do you know when to just to let go and move on. There’s a quote im sure everyone has heard thats along the lines of, if you can’t get them off of your mind maybe they are supposed to be there.  It’s pretty cliche but really, if you cant quit thinking about someone maybe its for a reason. Its like you get to the point where every part of you wants to be done but theres like .09472684 some percent chance of a little hope that there is still something there.  No matter what you do or what people tell you, you still cant 100% be done. I know there are coincidences but I also think everything happens for a reason.  All those time you ran into that person when you couldnt stop thinking about him was just by chance? I dont know, maybe there is more to each run in to eachother than we realize. There are so many unanswered questions about life and love, and when your love story will begin, and right now I am on a crazy journey!

I love this qoute:

“Remember to be happy because you just never know who may be falling in love with your smile.”

good times

November 10, 2008

My best friend from home came to visit me this past week. I cant even begin to tell you how much fun we have had. I can honestly say I have not laughed so hard and so much in the past week in a really long time!  Although it is starting to get cold, its been the perfect time for her to be here with all of the leaves changing and everything. I will definitely be sad when she has to leave! Its been nice having her here, it was almost like a much needed break from reality.  I guess the nicest part is knowing that I get to see her in a week and a half! Our Thanksgiving break is coming up so I am actually taking off a few days early so I will actually get to go home for 10 days.  It will be great! Spending time with my best friend and family! Well I am gonna go see what other adventures my best friend and I can get into 😉


October 14, 2008

My church has been doing this new series every Sunday called Greater Love.  This past Sunday the sermon was on trials.  This message was for me!  He said that trials are always occuring.  Whether you are just entering a new trial, coming out of one or they just dont seem to ever end, we should be thankful.  It sounds crazy, I know, but it really made me think.  I feel like lately thats all it has been. One trial after the next, and I just keep hoping and praying that something wonderful is going to happen some day soon, but it doesnt seem to come.  I have trials with friends, relationships, and school, and its like I just need a break and when am I ever going to get out of this low valley.  Then I realized, I would not be the person I am if these trials hadn’t ever happened. I wouldn’t be as strong of a person if events had never occurred.  As crazy and hard as it may be I need to be thankful.  I need to look on the bright side because someone somewhere is having a harder trial than me.

Tennessee cuteness

September 20, 2008

So I went to church and then to WalMart last Sunday. For some reason I saw a TON of little kids, literally it seemed like there was a little one down every aisle I turned. Though the one thing I noticed was that they were ALL so stinkin cute! Really, I never saw one that wasnt! I’ve decided it must be something in the water. 

This past Tuesday night I went to Borders to hear an acoustic set that Matt Wertz was doing to promote the release of his new cd. I must say he is absolutely AMAZING! He stayed to “meet and greet” everyone. I couldnt believe how nice he was. He didnt just say hey and keep going he took the time to actually stop and talk to everyone. Im looking forward for the next time he will be in nashville!